I am a hot mess...

Today is not my day. I have been doing really well so far in this pregnancy. But everything seems to have hit today. My kids won't stop screaming, I feel like the worst mother ever and Hudson keeps hitting me for no apparent reason and I can't get him to stop. It all started when I got to Raleigh's school to pick him up today and realized that his end of year party was indeed today and not tomorrow like I had previously thought. Bummer! Mother of the year flew right out the window. The teacher made out like it wasn't a big deal that they were missing the stuff we signed up to bring, but it was to me. We got home and I tried to clean up the mess that is my house, just like I do every day, and I just couldn't take it anymore. I sat down on the couch and began to cry. Raleigh came to me, hugged me and said, "Mommy, you can do this. It's OK! I know how we can do better.....'puter games." I guess pbskids solves all his problems, just not mine. So, I went upstairs to change and this is where the hot mess began. I used a baby wipe to remove all traces of makeup (because I felt like I was suffocating) because the make up remover wipes I bought at target have made my eyes swollen, red and bumpy. I'm too blasted cheap to buy the good wipes. When the heck will I stop making the same mistake. I took off the beautiful maternity dress that belonged to my sister because I felt that I could no longer pull it off. I preceded to put on bleached out short black shorts, an ugly purple monstrosity of a shirt, bronze flip flops and I pulled my hair back in a black headband, one side flipping out and the other, not so much. (I took a picture but it was too scary for the Internet) I made dinner because Phil is up here working on turning out 3rd floor into a bedroom for Raleigh and I didn't want him to go hungry. After dinner I decided to go to Publix and get snacks for Raleigh's class tomorrow to try and make up for being such an A+ mom. And guess what, I went how I looked. I didn't even wipes the kids faces after dinner, so they fit in with me. It was like white trash family come to town for the first time in a while. What a day. At least Raleigh's class will have apples, carrot chips and dip for a snack tomorrow. Please pray that I am back to myself by tomorrow. I don't know if I can handle another day like today. Physically or mentally. I need a bath...